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Hey there everyone, this is about my life, ponderings, and just about anything else, that goes on inside of my head or relationships. This journal can contain GRAPHIC descriptions about sex and life at times. If this offends please don't read it. For those of you interested--I'm a southern cali girl. I've had a lot of interesting experiences in my life, but I still have a whole lot to go. This journal is me, and as honest as I'll ever get about it, my family and most of my friends don't know about any of this, and they would probably die if they did. I was born in 1980 just so you can reference the age I was for some of the older entries, that reference makes it a little easier to understand my emotions. Well read and enjoy, I love comments...
So my new intro…Not much has changed about me, I’m older. Still with KeG, still a whore. People don’t change much, I still don’t feel guilt about much other than Ron, and eating. I hate eating. So yeah I’m officially out of the ana closet. At least here anyway, I would never tell anyone in real life, even my best friend who is mia. I swear she devises ways to keep me fat, except the other day, out of nowhere she was like you should do a lax flush, that might help, so I told her I had. After that she didn’t say anything to me about food the rest of the day. So I guess its our understanding of each other finally. But I feel that being ana gives you much more control than being mia. Because no matter what once you binge, you have to purge and that just totally sucks. I know that when I restrict I’m in control because I choose not to eat. No offense to all the mias out there! Stay skinny my loves, any way you have to. There is nothing higher than when I step on that scale and it’s a # lower.

Okay what else about me???? I love sex!! If you read this you'll get the idea. I can be a bitch, I know how to get what I want. I have fetishes for underwear, corsets, D-DDD size breasts. I suffer serious bouts of depression from time to time You’ll notice gaps, or weird posts. It’s been awhile though since I spent a week in bed because of it. Only plus of dep, is that I usually don’t eat and have dropped 10-15#s in a week! So yeah this week I need to lose 8#s, I think I will make it, but next week, I’ll need to lose 10 more. My on going battle. My metab is seriously fucked.

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